[He'll stop petting Morgrim after a while, though; no sense in overdoing it, though he is pleased that she let him.]
I do have something else to discuss with you, regarding things I've remembered. I don't know how much it involved you, but I do know it greatly affected the world we came from and so I believe you deserve to know.
[Good man. She'll nod a bit before disappearing, back into Shigure since her part in the conversation is over. He sits up a little at Arthur's words, since this sounds serious.]
[It kind of...takes him a moment? He isn't entirely sure how to put this into words now that he's started, but...]
...In my past life, I was very dedicated to trying to save people. To heal them from whatever agony they were currently facing, to cure the world of sadness and pain. To alleviate their suffering by any means possible, even if the method to do so was cruel or unwanted.
I found a way to do it, eventually. It was something called the Suppression; it involved awakening a god and using its power to seal away all of humanity's emotions. Positive, negative, everything - it would remove all emotion from the equation, leaving everyone governed by pure reason alone.
[He glances away after a moment.]
...I know it sounds unrealistic. Impossible; ridiculous, even. But I've remembered the ceremony and the god Innominat, and the immediate effect that came over people, and I...
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...I...actually succeeded. In doing that to people.
[Oh, wow. Shigure's quiet for a moment as he processes that.]
It does sound pretty crazy, but I can't imagine you'd lie to me about something like that. It also sounds like it'd be pretty difficult to remember something like that. Even if it's what you wanted - and what you thought would help - it's something that's hard to come to terms with now, isn't it?
[He's tempted, as usual, to avoid the question; after all, he shouldn't be relying on anyone else, not when it's his job to be relied on. But...]
...It is, yes. I don't...understand it, I don't know why...
[He stops there, though it isn't necessarily because he wants to, it's through an inability to continue; he still isn't maintaining eye contact at all, this is...it's a bit much, okay.]
[He's quiet again, trying to figure out how to handle this. If he's perfectly honest, he's supremely wigged out by what he's just heard, and wondering how the hell someone like Arthur could have done something like that in his past life. But for as strange and worrying as he finds it, it must be a thousand times worse for Arthur.]
I'm not going to deny that it sounds bad. No sense in trying to do that. But we don't know everything about what happened yet. We'll both probably get some more memories about it soon, and we can compare what we've learned and see if it'll shed any more light on it.
[It's not really comforting and he knows it, but he's not really sure what else to say.]
[He nods a bit at that, though he's still keeping his gaze averted; whether he was going to have more of an answer to that or not is difficult to say, though, given that he's quite suddenly gone weird and still, spending a good few moments just kind of intently staring at the blank space in front of his face.
After a moment whatever gripped him so suddenly seems to leave him, and he'll glance up at Shigure again once he seems to have his bearings.]
...Malevolence. It was...malevolence that you mentioned earlier, wasn't it?
...Which would explain why you wanted to stop negative emotions, even if it came at the cost of positive ones. So no one else could turn into a daemon.
That's what I was thinking. It's not easy to think about, but knowing what the thought process was helps a bit. Especially when it comes to something like this. If there really wasn't any other way to combat the malevolence... well, I can see why a decision like that is something you could come to. Don't get me wrong, it still sounds crazy. But it's the sort of crazy someone who is really desperate to save the world could agree with.
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I'm glad it'll make things a bit easier for you, though.
Thank you for talking it over with me. And for understanding all of this.
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I have reason to think that something...bad may happen, as a result of Retrospec giving us things from our past lives. It isn't anything life-threatening or unlivable, and I'll be all right. But... Well. Can I contact you, if things are difficult?
[Okay. Okay, just saying it should be fine, he's gotten this far without Shigure thinking badly of him or anything, so - ]
I've remembered being injured, and the damage I took from it seems to have been permanent. I was partially paralyzed on my right side, I lost the use of my arm from the shoulder down.
[He remembers Arthur having use of both arms, but now that he thinks about it, he does remember Arthur keeping his right arm covered by that exact same ridiculous outfit...]
You're right-handed, aren't you? That... sounds like it'll be a huge pain.
...Of course you can count on me if that happens. You can call me whenever, and I'll do what I can to help.
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[wow, way to call him out like that???]
In my defense, you're really cute! How was I supposed to resist?
Next time, ask first.
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Well, I'm sure he was pleased to see you as well; he's told me he recalls being very fond of you.
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You are a very lovely lady, however, even if he's not very refined in expressing that.
[arthur be nice to shigure oh my god]
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And you're quite the gentleman. You needn't worry too much about your friend there, I'm rather fond of him myself.
[Well, that gets Shigure to settle a little, anyway.]
See, I keep telling you you'd be great with cats! Unfortunately, Morgrim's not one I'm adopting out.
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[It's a nice thought, okay...]
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[He'll stop petting Morgrim after a while, though; no sense in overdoing it, though he is pleased that she let him.]
I do have something else to discuss with you, regarding things I've remembered. I don't know how much it involved you, but I do know it greatly affected the world we came from and so I believe you deserve to know.
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Yeah, of course. What did you remember?
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...In my past life, I was very dedicated to trying to save people. To heal them from whatever agony they were currently facing, to cure the world of sadness and pain. To alleviate their suffering by any means possible, even if the method to do so was cruel or unwanted.
I found a way to do it, eventually. It was something called the Suppression; it involved awakening a god and using its power to seal away all of humanity's emotions. Positive, negative, everything - it would remove all emotion from the equation, leaving everyone governed by pure reason alone.
[He glances away after a moment.]
...I know it sounds unrealistic. Impossible; ridiculous, even. But I've remembered the ceremony and the god Innominat, and the immediate effect that came over people, and I...
[...]
...I...actually succeeded. In doing that to people.
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It does sound pretty crazy, but I can't imagine you'd lie to me about something like that. It also sounds like it'd be pretty difficult to remember something like that. Even if it's what you wanted - and what you thought would help - it's something that's hard to come to terms with now, isn't it?
[...this is A Lot, are you okay...]
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...It is, yes. I don't...understand it, I don't know why...
[He stops there, though it isn't necessarily because he wants to, it's through an inability to continue; he still isn't maintaining eye contact at all, this is...it's a bit much, okay.]
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I'm not going to deny that it sounds bad. No sense in trying to do that. But we don't know everything about what happened yet. We'll both probably get some more memories about it soon, and we can compare what we've learned and see if it'll shed any more light on it.
[It's not really comforting and he knows it, but he's not really sure what else to say.]
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After a moment whatever gripped him so suddenly seems to leave him, and he'll glance up at Shigure again once he seems to have his bearings.]
...Malevolence. It was...malevolence that you mentioned earlier, wasn't it?
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Yeah. The thing that turns people into daemons. Did you remember something about it?
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It's largely caused by negative emotions.
[...Which honestly explains a lot.]
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[It's crazy, but it's crazy logic he can follow.]
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That's why stripping everyone of their emotions was "saving the world."
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[It's a complicated issue, isn't it...]
It probably makes it a bit easier to know that was the thought process behind it, yeah?
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[He's actually surprised at how relieved he is at it; it feels sort of wrong, honestly...]
It doesn't make what I did any better, but it's... I don't know, it's good to know that there was any sort of process behind it at all.
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[...]
I'm glad it'll make things a bit easier for you, though.
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[...]
I have reason to think that something...bad may happen, as a result of Retrospec giving us things from our past lives. It isn't anything life-threatening or unlivable, and I'll be all right. But... Well. Can I contact you, if things are difficult?
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What sort of bad thing are we talking? More memories or something?
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[Okay. Okay, just saying it should be fine, he's gotten this far without Shigure thinking badly of him or anything, so - ]
I've remembered being injured, and the damage I took from it seems to have been permanent. I was partially paralyzed on my right side, I lost the use of my arm from the shoulder down.
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[He remembers Arthur having use of both arms, but now that he thinks about it, he does remember Arthur keeping his right arm covered by that exact same ridiculous outfit...]
You're right-handed, aren't you? That... sounds like it'll be a huge pain.
...Of course you can count on me if that happens. You can call me whenever, and I'll do what I can to help.
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I should be all right, and I clearly learned to live with it well enough back then. But...I do appreciate knowing that that's an option. Thank you.
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